pull your monopoly together...

today i finally got a cheque from bell to compensate me for the overpayment i made 4 months ago when we switched from bell to rogers. maybe now they will stop sending me a bill each month showing me that they owe me $17.40.

post-christmas wrap-up

the christmas travelling season has ended and i must say it went much better than expected. the thing about going to someone else's home for holiday celebrations is that you can actually avoid your own family a lot easier because you are 'visiting' with others. this year was the first without julia around, which was definitely noticable but i still survived due to the strong presence of T at the dysfunct this year. it also helped that ko is like ten times funnier than last year and a lot less moody than the angst teenage girl she most often represents.
a good night/day of sleep today has gotten me back on track to enjoying the rest of my holiday. i'm trying to figure out a wedding gift for zeb and laura right now. i got ideas but not the money to back them up so we'll see what i can pull together on my budget.
still waiting for jules to make the call to lock me into my new year's eve outfit. i can only wear this pleather number for so long...i think a rash is developing.

scruples...

finished exams today with a huge ass kicking for my new testament exam. i love when strategic studying pays off. why study all the material when you can play the odds and wait for your ship to come sailing in.
this glorious event, however, has come at the cost of an ethical dilemma as i think i saw someone cheating during the exam today and i am not sure what to do about it. i'm not 100% sure that the guy was actually cheating but some suspicious behaviour and the krinkling of paper in what seemed to be the sleeve of his coat makes me believe my suspicions are correct.
the irony of it all is that my first time observing a "cheating-in-action" was during an exam at the div college. so good to know that God loves and uses even the cheaters.

E, I, R, 5, W, P...

i think my eye balls are starting to harden from the amount of radiation they have gotten from staring at this computer screen for 4 days straight. the funny thing is though, the only thing i want to do for my study break is go watch tv which also involves my eye balls staring at a glowing screen for a long period of time. that's the problem with eye balls these days, they think they know it all and don't take any advice when making decisions.

do not stare directly at the jersey...

nothing beats preping for an exam and watching some canadian curling olympic trials. so creepy though that the thrid from team gushue is a dead ringer for pete. maybe that is why pete said he was away all week...conspiracy theory what?

long time no hear...

i talked to cheryl for the first time today since the summer. so crazy to think it has been almost 2 years since our common-law days ended. it has felt like forever yet like no time what-so-ever at the same time. i blame it on her youthful complexion.

what is this...a retirement home?

the couch is starting to get a nice 'cole's ass' shaped groove in it because i have been home significantly more often than normal over the past 3 days. while it has been nice to sit still a little more that usual, the studying i am doing while sitting still is getting old fast.
i'm a little concerned that my hands seem to be shriveling up because they are so dry. soon i'll have to start shooing away the birds that come to pick at the cracks in my gross, dried skin. i know they are just trying to survive the winter but it is really hard to explain to others why you have birds pecking away at your hands 4 months of the year.

serial killer on the loose...

i have killed three fish in less than a week. they all drowned.

creepy guy...

sitting in bridges, working on my laptop, creppy guy staring at me.
don't know what to make of the weird feedback i have been getting from different people. seems like there is so much opposition to certain aspects of my opinion or apporach to ministry but i have never felt so certain about it at the same time. i'm not saying that there are no points of improvment (believe me, i can name them along with you) but i don't think that it is completely wrong all together.
why won't that creepy guy stop looking at me?

the jimmy leg...

i realized that i need to lay off the caffeine after my 4th night of insomnia last night (no doubt caffeine induced). these late night and early mornings are really starting to catch up with me.

when the procrastinating is good...

lamont hasn't eaten since i brought him home on saturday. i am afraid that he's not going to be a long lasting fish. lauren described him as 'dead and sinky' and i tend to agree with her diagnosis. i'm hoping for a fish miracle.

rand-o-mania...

it sounds like my neighbours upstairs are sitting in my room with me because our house is made of paper mache.
our bathroom smells really bad not because of obvious reasons but for a reason we have yet to determine.
today i almost got kicked out of the house because anthony caught me putting the sour milk back in the fridge for someone else to find.
i'm going to attempt to write 2 papers in 2 days, a feat never yet attempted or accomplished.
the snow took me for surprise today and i'm having a little culture shock having to clean off my car before i go anywhere now.
ben kept laughing at me for no apparent reason and i couldn't help but laugh back at him. that kid is a nut job.
tomorrow for a study break i want to go buy a fish.

real world math...

no sleep + early morning meeting + forgotten homework + bad presentation = i need a nap.

a glimpse of glory...

to see someone speak of something they are passionate about is to see into their soul. today i had the great pleasure to hear a friend speak of the work he is doing in international development and it was an extremely sacred experience. God works in such amazing ways through people who are incompetent but willing to make a difference.
i saw such a small piece of the glory of God but am overwhelmed. what would it mean to see it in its fullest?

justifying or defending...

do i justify or defend? do i think of others or only myself? am i self-deprecating for my own selfish ambition or am i sold out for someone else? how do i not compete when every part of me wants to? how can i be? how come you are?

someone else's shoes...

i am absolutely useless right now. my brain can't focus on anything. i have so much work that i know i can do and i even have ideas for what to do for it but i am immobilized and honestly couldn't be bothered to do anything. this always drives me crazy. i leave everything to the last minute because i actually can't do anything but that.
sometimes i wished i was one of those people like diana on degrassi who get the big science assingment done 2 weeks before it is due. i guess if i was one of those people i would be annoying to people like me who are just sitting around killing time because i can't be bothered to actually be productive with my time.

falling behind...

so an entire day has been spent doing the complete opposite than what i had planned to do. it's one of those things were what i did do today means more for the future than what i had planned but the change of plans means more pain in the present.
i had wanted to spend the day going to t.o. to get some books, spend a good 1.5 hours with a friend and a coffee then head home to start on the 2 papers and 2 presentations i have due in the next week or so. instead i ended up going for lunch with the fam and some friends, having a tag along for the trip to the t.o. and the time with my friend (which really changes the dynamics of the whole experience i might add) and now getting home at 8:45pm, full of guilt to do work but having no energy to do it.
i know it is good to put some things as priorities but i just keep getting farther behind on other things. how the hell do i do it all?

moderate-over whelmed...

it's just one of those days when you feel so small in a huge world and you wonder how it will ever work out. it sounds super depressing but i mean it more as a 'i wish everything would stop for a minute so i can catch my breath, grab something to eat and jump back in there' the next two weeks are going to be tricky...

sleep is good...

i woke up this morning and felt like it was the first time i had ever woken up in my life. i can't really explain it all that well but i felt that it had been my first experience of being awake and to be honest, i was somewhat annoyed and just wanted to sleep again.
i'm reading the narnia series and something like that happened in the chapter i read before bed. dreams are so weird that i could take on not just an idea but the feeling of breaking out of a state of unconsciousness.
with powers like these, i could take over the world...

things i hate most #34

sitting in a two hour class with cold wet jeans is definitely not my first choice of things to do.
the weather is crummy and cold and i don't want to leave my bed. thanks to technology i don't have to, until i have to pee.